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[Nov. 30th, 2004|01:04 pm] |
Was late for work this morning. I just couldn't get motivated to get up. I also decided I don't like driving. I wish that I could take a bus or a train into work like I did when I was in London. That was great. Just read the paper and wait for your stop.
This has been such a busy year at work. I have accomplished an amazing amount. Far more than I expected to get done. Just in the last six months, I have implemented an Active Directory Migration from NT4, Installed and configured an EMC CX500 SAN. Created an SQL SAN attached Cluster. I have been audited by various compliance agencies. I built a Virtual Environment and migrated 10 servers to Virtual hardware. I have been to Europe to asses our offices there for integration. I have begun an integration plan. I have started migrating all user data from the server based file server to a NAS attached to the SAN amounting to about 3 terabytes of data. And this is just the stuff I can think of off the top of my head. Now when I look back at my journal a couple of years from now, I can read this and say to myself "wow, I did all that?". lol
Okay, back to work. (Now I'm working on a plan to rename the active directory due to our company being acquired)
Cheers! |
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| Fun things to do while sitting on your ass. |
[Nov. 29th, 2004|09:47 am] |
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| |  excited | ] |
Okay, I'm hooked on FFXI again. I thought I had lost interest, but I started playing Paladin and now I'm hooked all over again. I can't wait to get home and play.
I'm also in the middle of the third season of "Alias". God I love that show. And if there was ever a woman that I could fall in love with, it is Jennifer Garner. She is amazing.
I can't wait for the next episode of "Lost". It is one of the most unique shows to come on TV is some time. I wonder if it will get canceled like most of the really good shows tend to do. (Firefly comes to mind.) |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 29th, 2004|09:39 am] |
I just wanted to say thank you to a certain person.
Thank you for taking my words and twisting them around and making feel small. I needed that. It certainly started my week off on a lovely note.
I'm sure you thought you were being funny. I guess that says all I ever needed to know about you. |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2004|07:27 pm] |
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| |  confused | ] |
I'm so confused. Yet another time in my life when I completely fail to understand people. I used to blame myself, but I'm not going to do that anymore. I'm pretty sure I didn't do anything wrong this time. Maybe there is a logical explanation.
Maybe.
On a different note, Happy Thanksgiving, everyone.
-Tory |
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| Lost |
[Nov. 20th, 2004|10:13 am] |
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| | excited | ] |
I started watching "Lost" yesterday. Very intriguing. I still have 7 more episodes to watch to get caught up. And with a rainy day outside, I don't have to feel guilty about being a couch potato all day. Yay!
-Tory |
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| A good day. |
[Nov. 19th, 2004|09:35 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
Today is a good day. Today is a really good day. |
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| Woofs |
[Nov. 18th, 2004|02:24 pm] |
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| |  restless | ] |
I'm thinking I might like to go hang out at Woofs for a while after work. I need a little R & R. :)
Yes, I believe this plan will work just fine.
Cheers!
-Tory |
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| A few random items... |
[Nov. 18th, 2004|08:05 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pensive | ] |
My family is coming to spend Thanksgiving at my house this year. I'm looking forward to it. It will be nice to have some company. My house gets really quiet sometimes.
I need to come up with something off the wall to do for New Years. I'm not sure what, but I am open to suggestions. (I don't think anyone really reads this, but if you do, please suggest.)
I am on yet another journey to try and lose weight. I am down by about 25 pounds, which is good. But I still have a ways to reach my goal.
I miss London. I find myself reflecting on my time there often. I felt really at home while I was there. I can't wait to go back in March. I think I could live quite happily in England given the opportunity. That is saying something, as I have never had any inclination to leave Atlanta since I settled in several years ago. Food for thought.
My new TiVo rocks! It is HDTV capable, and it is great to be able to time shift all my shows in HDTV. I also read that NBC is going to be starting a new HDTV channel on DirecTV and plans to replay some SciFi channel shows that are filmed in HD. Those include Battlestar Galactica and hopefully Stargate SG1 and Atlantis. Good times.
Tomorrow I am going on a "team building" outing with my department at work. We are going to play paint ball. Perhaps it is my pacifist ways, but I fail to see how shooting at each other with guns filled with paint will build team cohesiveness. Hmm.
Oddly, I wish I were dating someone. Not a big complicated overblown relationship, just dating. Someone to have dinner with. Someone to spend the weekend with me and pop popcorn and watch movies all Saturday afternoon with a fire in the fireplace. Someone that will call me on Friday and say, "let's go on a road trip" or just "I'd like to see you, can I come over tonight?"
One day, I guess.
-Tory |
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| A favor... |
[Nov. 17th, 2004|08:52 am] |
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| |  bitchy | ] |
If anyone that knows me is reading this, please do for me the following favor....
The next time I give any indication that I am "falling in love", please start repeatedly slapping me until you have eradicated any of the ridiculous notions of love and relationships from my fevered brain.
If there is anything I have learned from past relationships, it is that most people are out to take you for whatever they can get from you. And I, being full of ridiculous romantic notions, have no real defense for it.
I am reaching a stage in my life where I am realizing the mess my life is in due to relationship errors of past. When I fall for someone, I completely lose the ability to reason, and begin making decisions that will impact me long after whats-his-name has used me up and spit me out.
If I sound bitter....get over it, I am. I am angry with myself for being so naive. I am irritated that I am back in a situation that I swore I wouldn't get back into. I now live in Bum-fucking-Egypt, Georgia, with no access to real life. I miss my friends, I miss going out, I miss my life in Atlanta.
Okay, I think the rant can end here. The more I think about this, the angrier I become.
Cheers. Please do have the finest of days.
-Tory the bitchy. |
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[Nov. 10th, 2004|03:01 pm] |
I spent last week in Europe. It was fantastic. I was in London for several days, and Stockholm for a few more.
London was fantastic. I met some nice folks and a really cute Scottish lad named Charlie. I partied with a gay rugby team, and I made out with some brazilian guy in a bear bar on London's west end.
All in all, I would say it was a full week. I'm going back in a couple of months.
I can't wait. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2004|04:00 pm] |
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| |  scared | ] |
I never thought that I would get so upset about an election, but I think I could cry over this one.
I am stunned by how many people that I considered intelligent and thoughtful that are planning to vote for Bush in the upcoming election. The man is liar and a war criminal. Yet, people ignore the facts and believe what he tells them to believe.
I think that being an American is becoming an embarrassing thing to admit to the rest of the world. Blind patriotism and unquestionable loyalty are eroding away the freedoms that we have enjoyed. The apathy that consumes this nation is unstoppable. People are willing to believe whatever they are told on the evening news as if it were scripture from their God.
I am afraid of what the future will bring. Genuinely terrified at another four years of Bush dictatorship. He has completely undermined this country in the last four years. What will he do with another? Will we still be here, or will we be piles of ash left over from the global war that he is surely to pursue?
What are we going to do? |
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| Lies |
[Sep. 12th, 2004|11:12 pm] |
There are people in the world who believe that any lie is as good as truth, as long as the person being told the lie believes it. Those people will spend their entire life never allowing any one to know them. And some of them will never know themselves, for a lie told often enough will eventually be mistaken for the truth, even by the liar. |
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[Sep. 2nd, 2004|11:47 am] |
Avril Lavigne Lyrics
My Happy Ending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus]
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
[Chorus x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh... |
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| Happy Friday |
[Aug. 13th, 2004|10:58 am] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
Yay Friday!
I am in a pretty good mood today. I'm so happy that things are starting to feel more substantial. I know that doesn't makes sense to anyone but me, but that's okay.
I have a busy weekend coming up. I have a party to go to for a friend’s wedding tomorrow. After that I am off to Doctor Who Night at Allen's. After work today, I'll be going to a happy hour with my co-workers at Joe's Crab Shack. I'm looking forward to sampling a large amount of beer.
I have to clean my house this weekend. I have let my house keeping chores go for a little longer than I like. Not good.
I have a vacation coming up next month. I need to go someplace where I can sit under an umbrella all day, and be served drinks my scantly clad Latino men. Yes, I must figure a way to do this. Brazil, maybe? We shall see. (Not that I could afford it, but it's fun to think about)
That's all for now....
-Tory |
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| So long old friend... |
[Aug. 12th, 2004|12:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | melancholy | ] |
I have to say goodbye to my Acura. I will miss it.
I was forced to trade it in to relieve some of my debt woes. I also traded the Ranger. Now I have one vehicle again. A Ford F150 Pickup Truck. (Does this make me butch? Not likely)
This should relieve some of my financial problems. I might actually be able to pay off a couple of bills. I am definitely breathing a huge sigh of relief.
Now if I can sell my TiVo, I might even be able to afford a trip to the movies. Yay!
*sigh*
-Tory |
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| So I lied... |
[Aug. 10th, 2004|08:53 am] |
I said my next post would be a happy one. Well, not so much.
I am drowning in debt. A year ago, I had no financial worries whatsoever. Now I can barely afford to put gas in my car.
I will be kicking myself for my naive stupidity 3 times for every check I write to pay off debt.
I feel hatred brewing.
-Tory |
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| Catching up... |
[Aug. 9th, 2004|07:45 am] |
I haven't posted in a while. I was talking to some LJ friends recently, and it got me to thinking that maybe it was time to start again.
The last few months have been a little difficult. My whole life unexpectedly took a turn I never saw coming, and I guess that is a testament to how naive I can be sometimes.
I'm having a tough time getting my act together. I find that I don't want to be around people much, and I spend a lot of time alone. I need to snap out of it, but knowing and doing are often at odds with one another.
I will overcome, and I will get it together soon. One lesson I learned a long time ago, is that no matter how tough things get, I usually grow in some way from the challenge. That lesson has been tested because as I look back over the past year, I don't see anything but wasted time and emotion. But I did learn some lessons and I will probably talk about them in future postings.
That is enough of this depressing rambling. My next post will be a happy one, I promise.
The one area of my life that is going well is work. I have been working non-stop on a number of projects, and putting in a number of extra hours. I find that I am enjoying it quite a bit. The sense of accomplishment is my one real joy these days.
-Tory |
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| Broken |
[May. 30th, 2004|02:48 pm] |
I have something to write about,
But I don't know how.
The pen is really heavy.,
The words are no longer clear.
The picture on my wall is changing,
The paint is running.
The frame is broken.
Can it be repaired?
I am brittle.
My heart is hurting.
My mind is spinning.
Can I be repaired?
I don't recognize these people here.
Strangers, all of them.
Their faces are twisted.
Their voices are warped.
I don't think it will ever stop raining.
The flowers are drowning.
The birds can't fly.
The wind is breaking the trees.
Where is my courage?
Where is my fearlessness?
Where is my heart?
Where is my soul?
I am broken. |
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| Gay Day's are coming... |
[May. 27th, 2004|11:14 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | excited | ] |
Only one more week until we leave for Orlando. Being from Florida, I find it odd that I am looking forward to going there. I usually don't.
We added another day to our stay, so we will be staying at the Hotel Royal Plaza on Lake Buena Vista for 5 days and 4 nights. Yay!
The hotel is the headquarters for the Gay Days festivities, and should be replete with celebration. Here is to drinks and half naked men by the pool!
We are hoping to get some friends (Blake and Wes) to go along. This is the kind of thing where the more the merrier.
Well, back to work...
-Tory |
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| How to tell the difference... |
[May. 26th, 2004|07:23 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | peaceful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Beloved - Scarlet Beautiful | ] |
Life is full of little tests.
The real test is knowing that it ultimately doesn't matter if you pass. Only if you learn from your failure, (or your success.)
Don't ever forget to look around every now and then and realize that things aren't nearly as bad as you think they are. You can't control a situtation, and sometimes you can't control other's actions. But you are always in control of yourself.
....as the kids have been known to say....
Peace out... |
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